Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Good the Bad and the Ugly - 04/29/10

I am starting a new series entitled "The Good the Bad and the Ugly." This will be where I post the deep down gut level stuff I'm struggling through...that I wouldn't normally put out there for general consumption. We will see...I may regret it and NEVER do it again. :) Here we go. Here is the first edition of "The Good the Bad and the Ugly.":
Reputation management is far too important to me! What I say is carefully parsed and spun so as to shed a better light. Information is sorted to share only what will make me look wiser, smarter, less imperfect. I want to be perfectly honest and say what I truly mean, or how I truly feel. Is it wrong to be open about one’s sinful, depraved heart? Is it inappropriate to share unfiltered, the depth of my selfish immaturity? Does it make me less, make Him less? Or could it be that it might bring freedom to myself and to those who might be able to relate? Fear drives me to hide, just like Adam and Eve…not from God, but from my peers, from the people in my life. I fear judgment, and rejection. I care too much about what people think.

Yet I feel the importance of James 5:16 “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”

I’m going to be honest, open, and truthful. If I’m struggling I will own it. If I’m hurt, self-centered, foolish, angry I am going to be open about it so that I can take it out look at it and address it in a way that will bring healing. If I am rejected however sad that will be, I know that my Father doesn’t reject me. “Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:1. J.


  1. I say good for you for putting it out for people to see. :) Everybody struggles, just because its hidden doesn't mean its not there. At least when its shared other people can benefit from it. :)

    I love you!

  2. I have also considered starting a blog like this, but I know that mine would offend too many friends, lol! I guess I feel that the things I struggle with would be so different from anything most of my friends/church family members deal with. I wish you guys lived closer, I enjoy our visits with you. :)

  3. Christina - I would love it if we lived closer as well. Pepino is playing up here on May 15th I believe your inlaws are coming we would love for you both to come as well. It will be at our favorite barn concert hall again. :)

    Bec - I love you too!