My father once said two wrongs do not make a right but three lefts do. He went on to say that when you make a mistake, forget something or just plain screw-up, it doesn’t matter how many good things you have done. The critics will always remember the mistake. You will recognize who loves you because they will point out your mistake and make fun of you! They will not let you forget it. All the while they will remember all the good things you have done. The trick is to recognize who is who! That’s the hard part for me. So often my mistakes turn out to cause hurt and it is hard to see past it.
I forget things. I get things screwed up in my head. Some of it is I don’t hear as well as I used to. The slightest background noise makes it hard to hear clearly. I heard it but somehow I heard it wrong. I don’t know that I didn’t understand until feelings are hurt. Often I just forget things or confuse them in my head. One minute it’s this way and the next day I have turned it around. This is very frustrating for me but more so for others. So often lately I feel lost and in a daze. I am sure that doesn’t help. I was about to blame it on getting older but, I know what those who love me will say. I have always been a bit scatter brained. It just seems more so lately. The frustration of being out of work and the stress that causes along with worry about the well being of those I love distract me even more. I so need a job to help get my head back on track. I hate so say it but I need the routine. Maybe that is part of getting older. I don’t know but, I ask all those who love me to forgive me. I am not perfect… but, you already knew that.
"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."
Hebrews 4:16 NIV