Monday, February 15, 2010

Internal Reflections

I don’t have a lot of time to blog because I have to go in to work early, but I did want to say two things. First, my kidney stone has passed finally, and I am beginning to feel better. Phew! Thank you Lord!
Second, and most importantly, while in bed struggling with my kidney stone I had a lot of time to think about things. I am going to come clean about something that I am not proud of…so if you are inclined to impugn it would mean a lot to me if you would discontinue reading and have a lovely day. For those of you who love me enough to allow me to honestly open my heart and dissect my humanness here goes: I make lame excuses for poor behavior, lack of doing what I should, and doing what I should not. I’ve known this…but now I KNOW it. I have seen it, taken it out and looked at it, and am now going to begin to confront and deal with this in my life. I will no longer allow myself easily off the hook. I have determined to hear my internal conversation and require more of myself. By the grace of God it will stop. Lord thank you for being faithful to continue the good work you have begun in me. J.

2 comments:

  1. Sanctification, sweet sanctification...

    I love you, my friend!

    ~L

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  2. I know just what you mean and how you feel Jeanne! It is hard to overcome our faults, I think about mine daily, but never really feel like I truly try hard enough. Life becomes so stressful and busy, and we continue to blow things off just as we always have done; it is hard to remember to work on our hearts each day, you are not alone! :)

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