Now is Now

I love to look at old pictures, and to remember the exact look on one of the kids faces, or the laughing until our sides ached.  And other times I imagine what it will be like when Eva can sing along with me when I sing a song, or I can imagine a time when Timothy and I are really old, still walking hand in hand....those hands covered in fragile, very wrinkled skin. 

And then there are other times, when I am acutely aware of every thing about right now...this very moment.  That's how it is tonight.  Maybe because Timothy and I have literally been in bed sick for two days(I teased him and said our laying in bed reminded me of the old people in Charlie and Chocolate Factory, how they just laid in bed all day), but I'm thinking about everything, everyone, and I'm emotional, really emotional.  I'm thinking about how much I love and cherish my Parents, and am sad that they are aging, that we all are aging.  I feel a bit of fear about the possibility of losing Timothy somehow, sooner rather than later...for some unexpected reason.  I'm not borrowing trouble here...just holding on a little tighter tonight.  Loving a little more intensely.  Appreciating, and savoring those I hold the dearest. 

What I'm feeling is a realization that now is now.  I don't want to live in the past, or long so much for a different future.  I want to love that our house is full to overflowing.  I want to look past the mess, to appreciate the pile of people watching t.v. in my livingroom.  I want to soak in all the noises, voices, and warmth of those who are the loves of my life.  I want to bask in right now, right now.  J.

#36 Get a Tattoo

I will bet that when many of you read my last post, the update to my 50 Before 50 you gasped when you read that I had actually gotten a tattoo! 

I know! CRAZY!!!

It is SO far outside my normal that I still smile about it when I see it, or think about it. 

Even more shocking...

TIMOTHY GOT ONE TOO!!!!  :) 

In preparation for my 50 Before 50 I thought a LOT about getting a tattoo.  Neither Timothy nor I are huge fans of being covered in tattoos, and I could never think of anything I wanted permanently written on my body...but I came up with an idea that I knew would work for us.  SO...to permanently commemorate our 25th anniversary on 12/6/11 we got matching tattoos. 

CHECK....IT....OUT!!!

This was the funniest, most outside the box thing we've EVER done.  We are SO glad we did it!  Great way to celebrate our 25th!  T and J. 

50 Before 50 - Update 01/11/12

Some exciting things have been crossed off my list.  I will share the details of each coming up soon.  What I have realized after some reflection is that this 50 Before 50 list, as frivilous and silly as some of it is, has caused me to look forward, plan, and enjoy anticipation in a way I haven't for years.  It's been a fabulous experience!  I look forward with excited anticipation at all that is left.  OH!  and as I said...I reserve the right to swap out one for something better...and I will be doing that very soon.  I turned 45 in December...that means I only have 5 years left...I better get busy!  J. 

So here it is...my updated 50 Before 50 list:


This is my 50 Before 50 list(in no particular order). These are things I want to accomplish/do before I turn 50 in 5 years. I reserve the right to swap out for something better. :) Some of my choices might raise eyebrows, but I hope you understand the lightheartedness with which I put this list together...purposing to step outside my comfort zone as much as possible, stretch, and grow as a person/woman. Feel free to laugh! Enjoy! JH


1. Get a Passport

2. Gallop a horse along a beach

3. Become a runner – Run a 5K to prove it.

4. Learn to be a friendly neighbor

5. See the Northern Lights

6. Learn to rock a hula hoop(I have them, one for me and one for Hannah...soon)

7. Cloister alone for a weekend – speak to no human

8. Go fishing for the first time

9. Find a Sushi I like(working on this one...more on this later)

10. Lose 30 pounds(unfortunately as is standard for me the 6 I lost have found their way back...but I'm not giving up!)

11. Visit Mt. Rainier

12. Pay for the meal of the person behind me in the drivethrough

13. Make Pottery on a wheel

14. Kiss at the top of the Empire State Building

15. Take Guitar lessons – Play a song for someone to prove it.

16. Get a Brazillian Wax

17. Surprise a friend (08/29/11 - Surprised my friend Peggy on her 47th birthday. 21 of us gathered at our local Taco Time to show Peggy how loved she is. Happy Birthday my dear friend! I love you!)

18. Surprise myself

19. Have a drink at Starbucks on the 40th floor of the Columbia tower (2nd highest Starbucks in the world) (watch for an upcoming post on this)

20. Buy a Serger and learn how to use it.

21. Find a red wine I enjoy(more on this in an upcoming post)

22. Sky dive

23. Ride in a helicopter

24. Volunteer at Children’s Hospital

25. Take a swim class – learn Swimmer’s breathing and End of lane Flip

26. Ride a zip line – in an exotic place

27. Read the Bible straight through in a weekend.

28. Go river rafting

29. Hike by moon light

30. Wear a real flower lei in Hawaii

31. Take a class about the Stock Market

32. Remove my Age spot

33. Ride a Jet ski

34. Snorkel off a tropical island

35. Take Piano lessons

36. Get a tattoo(YES I ACTUALLY DID IT!!!  Watch for an upcoming post about it)

37. Take an art class

38. Learn to surf

39. Master Crocheting(watch for an upcoming post on this one)

40. Dance like no one is watching

41. Learn to eat proficiently with chopsticks(I've bought them...and have begun working on it...can you say awkward?!?)

42. Go Vegetarian for a month

43. Build a dining room table (and chairs?)

44. See an Opera

45. Take a Spanish Class

46. Knit something for myself with “expensive” yarn

47. Skinny dip

48. Take a flower arranging class

49. Treat myself to a spa weekend

50. Ice Skate at Rockefeller Center

Blogging Barriers

Last year I averaged about 3-4 blog posts a month...until October.  In October our household changed.  We added 3 members, and while it's especially wonderful to have little Missy Eva around...the changes have had a stifling affect for me.  A.  I want to play with our precious girlie any opportunity I have because I know this time is finite...they won't be here forever.  B.  The atmosphere is so different that I can't focus, or concentrate.  The T.V. is almost always on, and set to something that I wouldn't choose, nor do I wish to watch, there is tension, and if I hole myself up in my room, to work on a project, it is viewed as unfriendly and standoffish.  Chaos does not equal creativity to me.  It's hard for me to overcome.  Blogging isn't the only place affected by this, but it is definitely one.  I'm trying to find a way to do the things I want and need to do, while not offending others.  It's been tough.  But I'm determined to push through this, because there are things I want to do...blogging being one of them.

In the next week I intend to:

Update my 50 Before 50 - there are some pretty exciting and unbelievable things completed.  :) 
Show you what we've been up to lately
Post some of our goals for 2012

So that's my contribution for today...a little honest assessment of why it's been so difficult for me to blog.
May you all have a blessed Lord's Day!  J.

As Time Goes By

Hello 2012!!!  2011 was a sleeper of a year...started a little slow and finished like a pro!  I loved it!  That said I'm not sad to see it go, I embrace and look forward to 2012.  There are many things left to say about 2011, and much more looking forward that I would like to do.  Stay tuned, because one of my resolutions for 2012 is to blog more.  Happy New Year!!!  J.

A Little Christmas Perspective

25 Years and Counting...

Today is our 25th Anniversary!  It's CRAZY that 25 years have passed.  Take a stroll down memory lane with us...and feel free to laugh at the variety of hair/no hair styles, and weight fluctuations...we have. 

It all started on December 6th 1986:

What we remember most about our wedding day:

J:  Timothy was wearing pink and gray argyle socks...also I remember he jumped over my Princess Diana length train.

T:  Going shopping with Jeanne and coming back to the church for photos with 1/2 hour to spare.  Our Mother's were in a complete panic.

Then came the era of BIG bangs, and BIGGER glasses:

Not to mention the starting of our family...Little Peter.

Peter is hiding a 7 month Hannah bump

And then came Hannah - this is the day she was baptized.

Those aren't high-water's it was a costume party.



BAM!  And there is gray in the beard!

We are Grandparents - Sweet Eva!

25 years later...a whole lot more gray and wrinkles... All of them earned!  Along the way we have collected wonderful family, friends and memories.

We both agree that we love each other more today than ever before.  The future may not be known but we know we look forward to traveling into it together!