Out of my comfort zone does not come close to describing it. Tonight I am auditioning for a part in a Fishnet Theatre play. What??? I know right?!? I have never acted in my life…ok I played a saloon girl in a western in Jr. High…and all I did was sit on the lap of a Jr. High cowboy who acted like I was a real saloon girl(he was all hands.) Not a great experience! Auditioning is not entirely by my own choice. I’m doing it solely for Timothy. When your husband says “It would really mean a lot to me…” what is a girl supposed to do? He has said I could back out, but I can see it in his face…it really would mean a lot to him.
Never mind the many real reasons why it would be terribly difficult if I would get a part and actually have to tour with the play(time, over-commitment, stage fright, loading and unloading the trailer etc.), I don’t even know if I can act. Never a dream of mine, acting, seems like something other people do…the overly emotive, extroverted, melodramatic, attention seeking people…right? While I can be melodramatic, and who doesn’t like people to pay attention to them, it’s just not in my nature to think acting would be a good idea.
So here I sit at a cross-road…today is the day! My heart is racing with fear, self-consciousness, guilt, and dread. All I can think about is kindly explaining to Timothy that I just can’t do it and book foot the other direction. But I know in my heart that he would be horribly disappointed and that makes me sad.
What will I do?!? YIKES!! I can’t wait to see how this cliff hanger ends…Stay tuned for the full story tonight at 11:00 p.m.
J.
You can do it!! :) And even if somehow you don't get the part, at least you'll have tried, and so Timothy won't be disappointed. :)
ReplyDeleteMay you have the peace and love of God with you and the support of your family and friends. You are really stepping out of your comfort zone and I admire you for that. Love you.
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